Question
I'm a bit stuck. I've moved from FL to NM and just about everything in my life has changed. I don't seem to be interested in anything other than simplifying my outward life to its most basic forms (minimal personal posessions, almost total lack of social interaction, and a job that is moderately fulfilling but not exciting or over-taxing.) These changes as a result of my move are happening without conscious intent (they are, however, a radical change from who I've been in the past), but are exactly what I asked for so that I can figure out how to begin again spiritually after an absence of conscious effort for several years. I feel that I'm moving toward something but have no idea what. Is this normal? Should I just wait and see what I'm "led to" next or "go looking"? I've tried meditating to little avail; my life goes haywire when I do for any length of time. Any suggestions? I'm a 42 year old single male and want the normal things out of life; a partner to love who loves me back, to live with joy, grace and dignity; and to fulfill my spritual potential to my greatest capacity. Thanks for listening, anyway. Seeing my questions and thoughts in print helps to focus my confusion at a more manageable level.
Answer
Hi, Charlie.
Thanks for the note. Maybe you've sorted it out just by writing out your thoughts.
By the way, I'm in New Mexico, in Albuquerque. We have monthly meetings here where we sit together and then have a lot of time for a sort of meditative discussion. If you are interested, you can email me at orders at cuttsreviews.com, with your preferred email address and maybe a phone and/or mailing address if you want. Our next meeting is Sat., Aug. 20. You could also call me at 281-0684.
It sounds like having some quiet time would help whatever is going on sort itself out, digest, etc. and yet you say that meditating has caused problems. I wonder what kind of meditating you may be doing. There are so many "techniques" that are recommended by different people. In its simplest form, meditative inquiry is a quiet space of listening to whatever is here, which includes the thoughts and emotions moving through or holding on to the body, as well as the warm air touching the skin, the feel of the body on the chair, the hum of the fan.
Maybe we can talk more about this.
Best wishes,
Jay
